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ok im updating... but not much (i gotta go shower lol) for all of those
who asked me to add them... pleez tell me again and this time i will!..
now then to talk about my life?.... lets see... my life my life... oh
yes i now live my life with a purpose, i live my life not to become
someone, not for something, but for SOMEONE! i believe (to the chore of
my being) that i have found my one true love... i cant explain it... i
kno its only been three months and im sure NONE of you will believe
me... but none of that matters... b/c.. i beleive me! no.. i believe IN
me.. no.. i believe in US! three months down.. w/ no major fights (a
few disagreements) NO thoughts of not seein each other the next day
NONE!, only sadness when we dont see each other, and extreme
undescribable happiness when we do!... i cannot speak for my Aimee...
but for me... just seeing her smile, smelling her scent, hearing her
voice, or touching her skin gives me such a sensation that i dont
believe anyone else has ever felt it.. its so original, so pure, so
extreme, so REAL, and so perfect (just like Aimee herself) Um.. since i
could continue for much longer on this... b/c this doesnt even begin to
describe how much she means to me or how much i love her!.. im gonna
move on lol
I LOVE YOU AIMEE! :) :D
okay... so the rest of my so-called life (i saw that show a few times..
not bad) i have yet ANOTHER favorite movie... its called Garden
State... if anyone knew me last year theyd know i loved the show Scrubs
(sadly i no longer watch it) but the main character *Zach Brach* made
this movie and it is just INCREDIBLE!!! (EVERYONE MUST SEE IT...) the
VERY last scene.. very last camera view we see.... is my new favorite
movie image... its in-fucking-credible! that embrace... that hug... is
FUCKING AMAZING..... i love it!!!!
anyways..... school sux major balls... wut makes it suck so much is
that my used-to-be favorite class (english) is now one of the classes i
dread the most! i also have two horrible math classes and phsics is a
killer... oh yes and government is the worst class ever... well maybe
not but w/ the teacher i have... id rather sit through another hour of
physics (yes i mean it)... on the upside... history and religion are
still super easy and lunch is fucking hilarious! WOOT! (i never say
that anymore haha) um... im in two plays... ND's Damn Yankees.. im
Henry (baseball playa) and in Regina's Stage Door... im Lou.. Lou
Milhauser! (business man or sumthin lol) COME SEE THEM BOTH... dates
will be posted later! :) ... tennis is starting soon we will have So
much fun and we'll actually WIN! STATES BABY! haha maybe not but w/e i
think thats about all.... i really gotta go thats why this is so short
(? huh? haha) newayz... i promise to update SOON (ish) :D ;)
innywhoo... ttyl leave comments YAY
*in love and LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT!* lol
Alex .... i love you Aimee! :D
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[20 Nov 2004|12:57am] |
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well this DEF wasnt a good friday lol... rainy.. BARELY got to see aimee this mornin... her day wasnt startin off well... didnt get home till bout 6... had to leave @ 7... aimee couldnt go to the dance :(... VERY VERY SAD!!... so didnt get to talk to aimee liek at all.. again VERY VERY SAD!!... the dance was pretty crappy... but we made the best of it... the endin song was... yes u guessed it LOVE SHACK! lol! good times! lol... hmm.. i miss aimee like crazy... but luckily saturday will be with her almost the whole day! (saturdays might be PASSIN fridays lol)... well i heard the regina play went well... congrats to all.. comin to see it sunday! yay! lol... other than that... idk... i miss aimee! lol ILY IMY ALWAYS!!! AAF!!!
COMMENT PLEEZ
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wednesday really suck!! after a LOOOOOONG HORRIBLE night w/ NO sleep and some tears of fear and regret shed... and a day of NOT EATIN (cept grapes @ lunch and then dinner @ 6) everythin is oooook! Ive fallin and am still falling!
im convinced we're meant to be!... im convinced we're sposed to be... im convinced i cant live without u anymore!
*A girl asked a guy if she was pretty, he said no. She asked him if he wanted her, he said no. She asked him if she left would he cry, he said no. She turned to leave, he grabbed her arm and said..you're not pretty; you're BEAUTIFUL. And I don't want you; I NEED you. And I wouldn't cry if you left; I would DIE* ~~ AAF AIMEE.. truly always and completely!! i swear to u i do NEED u... u r the most BEAUTIFUL girl in the world... i would DIE if i lost you!! AAF means more to me than any other letters put together EVER!! im so sorry... for how i was ... but i promise u ive learned! ive made mistakes and ive hurt and ive been hurt.. ive learned from them alll! just for when i meet someone like u.. i can take all those and be perfect for u! i just want to make u happy!! i will spend the rest of my life proving that to u!! ive searched for years for a girl like u.... a girl i can talk to and is my best friend... a girl i trust with my LIFE and my heart... a girl who i not only want to be with but NEED to... ive never meant anythin more than ive meant AAF to u! i have never lied and will never lie! NO SECRETS!! ur the greatest thing to happen to me... u make me want to be a better man! u make life seem worth it... i look forward each night to seein u in the morning and each afternoon to talkin to u that night! i live to be with u to talk to u... to be seen with U! ppl asked me y i was smiling.. i said b/c i just talked to u... today ppl wasked wut was wrong and i couldnt answer b/c i felt so bad... so scared! i cant lose u aimee!! i could never hurt u!!! im only happy becuz of u!! nothin else is really good for me right now... but ur making everythin seem a lil better.. a lil easier!... ily imy ALWAYS! FOREVER! COMPLETELY! ur amazing... ur incredible... ur beautiful... ur perfect for me! and i NOW KNOW.. we SHOULD be together... u feel almost the same way (i hope)... ive never needed anythin or anyone more than i need u! im not askin for ur promise of forever (tho id like it)... im just askin for ur promise of now... to realize how special this is! to kno i care bout u more than life (more than u kno)... to kno im ALWAYS here for u.. ill never leave u... id give u the whole world if i could! and im giving u myself.. my love FULLY, TRULY, DEEPLY, COMPLETELY!! i hope this helps u realize a lil more of how much i love you!! p.s. u smell incredible and ur the best kisser ever (b/c ur not just kissin /w ur lips... ur kissin w/ ur heart.. like i am) ive never held someone so close and ive never held someone's hand sooo much! I LOVE IT ALL!! i cannot WAIT for this weekend... all 3 days with you!!! it will be the best ever!! thanx so much for understanding.. u have no idea how much THAT means to me!... i am the luckiest guy on the planet.. i kno that!! i will work my life to make u feel the way i do!! well... i spose i could continue on for a while.. but for now thats enough! i cant wait to be with u... I MISS U SOOOOOO MUCH!!! ily AAF! (over and over again!) AAF AAF AAF AAF! FOREVER!!!! ily AIMEE!
ok other than that... today sucked til after i saw aimee.. then i played ping pong w/ jeff and wagner... did ok.. but wagner beat me too many times lol! innywhoo...
TOMORROW's FRIDAY.... TGIF!!!!
tomorrow night ND dance ~ w/ aimee
saturday mich v osu game ~ w/ aimee
& regina hockey game ~ w/ aimee (9 pm civic center SCS.. be there!)
sunday regina play ~ w/ aimee (230 regina aud... $7.. be there!)
*CANT WAIT AIMEE!*
I've also decided to end every entre w/ part of a song's lyrics
Sometimes in our lives
we all have pains
we all have sorrows
but if we r wise
we'll kno that theres
always tomorrow
Lean on me
when ur not strong
and ill be ur friend
ill help u carry on
for it wont be long
till im gonna need
someone to lean on
pleez swallow ur pride
if i have things
u need to borrow
for no one can fill
those of ur needs
that u wont let show
call me.. if u need a friend
call me.. if u ever need a friend
call me.. if u need a friend
CALL ME!
COMMENT PLEEEEEEZ! :)
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yea it was weds... :( i dont like weds! we left my house late.. and that means i had very little time with aimee this morning :( and after last night it really really hurt!
im sry aimee... i kno... im sry i question!.. i do think we're meant to be! we're perfect for each other! i miss u sooo much! ily! ALWAYS! AAF!
hmm well the good thing bout today was.. HALF DAY WOOT!! lol
the religion test was ACTUALLY difficult tho.. thats not good lol
other than that nothin much.. got home bout 1245 good stuff!
my good friend MIKO (congrats on the g/f) brought me the best sub ever made from quiznos.... thanx!! i watched a movie called American History X... probly one of the greatest movies... extremely racist and like just bad! dont see it if ur sweet kind and loving... but if ur a hateful spiteful person see it... maybe ull change (not that any of my friends r! ily all)lol
now i get to wait for my aimee to come home from work... since my room STILL isnt clean lol.. ill work on that again.. which means ANOTHER nap.. thats like 3 days ina row! scary lol im determined to get my room clean tho!!
um... but i must say... other than like BIG FISH ... specially recently American History X really got to me.... "Life is too short to be pissed off all the time." ~ thats so true! hatred gets us no where!
well thats about it for now... thanx to all my friends! another shout out to bridget! FANTASTIC L/J thanx sooo much! ily souly
COMMENT PLEEZ!
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Well ive decided to start writing in this once again.. lol
to start out... i gotta "holla" at Bridget!.. thanx sooo much for making this... lyl!.. its the greatest!!
now a lil bout me.. well idk wut i said last but... the best thing goin on w/ me is AIMEE .... my amazing g/f!... we're so perfect for each other.. she makes me so happy! yay! lol
skool sux but w/e... we just did macbeth.. it went well i had fun... um... i turned 17 and more importantly realized how many friends i have... thanx i love you all!.. shout out to drama! lol
um... so now we kinda caught up...
so today i gave blood... it was an experience... i missed 2 1/2 classes lol.. but when u really think bout it... it feels good to kno ur helpin ppl! :) a couple ppl fainted or got light headed.... i got a lil dizzy but its all good!.. my arm kills tho! :sadness: lol
um.. i gotta get my room clean lol so ill be workin on that... BIG GAME saturday for Mich... theyll win! lol
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS WEEKEND!!! ITLL BE AMAZING... AIMEE ALL 3 DAYS YAY! ILY IMY! ALWAYS! AAF!!
thats bout it for now...
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*To All Of Alex's Fan Club* (or who ever reads his journal :P) I think that you should all comment and tell alex if u like his journal. the friend that made it for him is very curious because she seconded guesses everything.. it would so kind for all of you to him what you think. hope u like it.
lol alex im just kidding!! i love u so much Souly!! hehe well the only thing that matters is if YOU like it!! :D xoxo BFF
Bridgey! <3
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If I were a month I would be: November
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday (but Saturdays r catchin up)
If I were a time of day I would be: 9 pm
If I were a planet I would be: Earth
If I were a sea animal I would be: dolphin
If I were a direction I would be: North (so i could lead ppl home)
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a comfy bed (even tho i dont sleep)
If I were a historical figure I would be: Abraham Lincoln
If I were a liquid I would be: Mt. Dew (i drink enough of it lol)
If I were a stone, I would be: Diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: Evergreen (in winter w/ snow on it!!)
If I were a bird, I would be: Eagle
If I were a tool, I would be: wow um... hammer?
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: rose
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: warm w/ a light breeze (dusk of a perfect spring/summer night)
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: guitar or drums
If I were an animal, I would be: wolf
If I were a color, I would be: light blue
If I were an emotion, I would be: true happiness
If I were a vegetable, I would be: carrot
If I were a sound, I would be: MUSIC
If I were an element, I would be: hydrogen (idk y)
If I were a car, I would be: viper
If I were a song, I would be: You've Got a Friend in Me - Toy Story (its a great song and i agree ... but i chose it mostly cuz i cant think of nethin else lol... i love music...the song fits tho)
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Stephan Spieldberg
If I were a book, I would be written by: J. R. R. Tolkien
If I were a food, I would be: italian
If I were a place, I would be: Detroit (40 yrs ago)
If I were a material, I would be: fleece
If I were a taste, I would be: good
If I were a scent, I would be: myself (apparently i smell good)
If I were a religion, I would be: catholism
If I were a word, I would be: Trust
If I were an object, I would be: pencil
If I were a body part I would be: hand
If I were a facial expression I would be: Smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: English
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Bugs Bunny
If I were a shape I would be: circle
If I were a number I would be: 9
A is for age: 17
B is for booze: no drinking!
C is for career: idk.. hopefully fine arts...
D is for dad's name: Glenn
E is for essential items to bring to a party: fun lol music!! idk
F is for favorite song at the moment: Untitled- Simple Plan
G is for girlfriend: AIMEE!!
H is for hometown: Detroit... Clinton Township now lol
I is for instruments you play: none anymore (drums back in the day)
J is for jam or jelly you like: grape? lol
K is for kids: none lol hardy har har
L is for living arrangements: parents and brother and sis
M is for mom's name: Barbara
N is for name of your best friend: too many to name one... i luv ya all
O is for overnight hospital stays: cept when i was a baby... none
P is for phobia[s]: being forgotten?
Q is for quote you like: The moment you feel like giving up, just remember why you held on for so long
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: friendship... jessica... 12yrs
S is for sexual position: um... none yet lol
T is for time you wake up: 5 minutes b4 i have to go somewhere
U is for unique trait:
V is for vegetable you love: none lol
W is for worst trait: get down easily
X is for x-rays you've had: 1... my arm
Y is for yummy food you make: none... but i eat good food
Z is for zodiac sign: Scorpio
Firsts
First job: quiznos
First screen name: alman9119
First funeral: megan andres :(
First pet: Shemi (doggy)
First piercing: none
First tattoo:none
First credit card: none
First kiss: um... keri i think... :)
First enemy: wow... me and cusmano sorta had a rivalry for a while
First favorite musician: first? wow... like... b/c of my parents some oldies.. or b/c of my sister... kurt cobain/nirvana
Lasts
Last car ride: like 1/2 hour ago..
Last kiss: Saturday!
Last movie watched: "watched" love actually
Last beverage drank: wow... like mt dew @ lunch i think
Last food consumed: bag of chips
Last phone call: hmm.. my mom sayin she was @ skool to pick me up
Last time showered: this morning
Last CD played: Simple Plan - Still Not Gettin Any...
Last website visited: Livejournal.com
Now
Single or Taken: Happily taken
Sex: Male
Birthday: November 12
Sign:Scorpio
Siblings: 2 older sisters 1 younger bro
Hair color: brown
Eye color:blue
Shoe size: 10 1/2... 11
Height: 5'10" maybe
Right now what are you...
Wearing: undershirt & like athletic pants
Drinking: nothin
Thinking about: this/ aimee
*Eighth Grade*
What were you like: friendly.. i kinda ruled the skool lol
What was your favorite class: Mr Ignangis... history
Who was your best friend: jessica and julie
Who did you have a crush on: julie for a while
Something random: KLEENEX FIGHTS!
*Freshman Year*
What were you like: lil shy... gettin used to skool
What was your favorite class: Cusmano lol
Who was your best friend: Fazi and probly like Miko/Dave
Who did you have a crush on: Keri
Something random: Tumor! lol dave
*Sophomore Year*
What were you like: outgoing... friendly
What was your favorite class: Bilicki / Hassett
Who was your best friend: M and K and like a ton of others.. scotty/fazi... cont.
Who did you have a crush on: Kelly, Darlene, K
Something random: the whole M K A thing was pretty random lol and stuck! :)
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hey i kno its been a loooooong time.. but im not gonna update completely yet
2 things
1) homecoming 04 weekend was the best weekend of my life
2) fight it all u want... im still gonna be here!!!
now the point of this... i want a LOT of responses PLEEZ
PLEEZ GIVE ME A MEMORY OR 2 OF US or me... and tell me all bout it and stuff!
thank u
ily... nostalgic is a great word!
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...will it EVER be?...
wow it has been a looooooong time... but ill put in the basics...
school sux soooo much its so hard already!!.. i m kinda scared
soccer isnt gettin any better... tho last game they FINALLY put me at MY position (left forward) for like 5 min and i almost scored haha... um.. hopefully theyll let me play there more..
work.. still sux haha im like never workin anymore.. so theyll probly fire me soon
um...
good or bad first?
bad... im grounded b/c my cell phone bill was way to high... they took my phone away (dont call or text or anythin!!) and im stuck at home...
they wont tell me for how long but i gotta clean and stuff and hopefully theyll let me still go to the football games and stuff...
good...
~im goin to regina's homecomeing (yay!!) w/ K!!! WOOOOT i luv ya K :D
~i got outa groundin for 1 day only... but it was incredible b/c i spent the whole day w/ chelsea! shes my fav!... we were at her grandma's church's picnic but it was still fun haha (frisbee!)... then we went putt putt (rode in a mustang w/ the top down woot woot) then watched a movie at her house (ronzazzo ily)
baaaad...
~ im in love
great...
~ im in love
um... well i cant think of anything else... so ill shout out to my friends who read this (leave a comment) i luv ya all so much!
MCR rules my musical world!
*this little piggie cried all the way home*
*pools of sorrow.. waves of joy... r drifting through my open mind*
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ok so its been a long time... basically ive had soccer, work, and talkin online and on the phone
um i actually made varsity soccer which surprised me... and we had a tourney this past weekend and we came in second (won 4-1, lost 6-1, won 2-0 i think).. the bad news... i suck haha
i did sumthin to my leg and it hurts when im running and turnin and wut not.. but im not using it as an excuse... also i slide tackled sumone and got this nasty "cut" on my left leg and a some scratches stuff on my right...
newayz... i hope my leg gets better so dont drop down to JV cuz that would suck! lol
got my class schedule
1- religion...... limarenko
2- AP comp..... ayrault
3- criminal justice... bilicki
4- AP physics...... tocco
5- lunch
6- honors advanced math.. swaney
7- AP american history.. bilicki
8- Art... stephens
still havent started my summer reading or the project .. oops
um.. lets see.. work sux and im SURE theyre gonna fire me sooon too bad
i dont have a car... this yr is gonna be sucky/crazy lol
*how long too long when ur waiting by the phone*
*i just wonder do u ever think about me*
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...im not okay...
soo its been a while lol... the last entry was put in by my sis.. so yea... lol
basically my life has been... drama and confusion... along with pain and thinking way to much!!
so yes i have the bad news that i broke up with julia.. and if u ask me y... its b/c i fell for another girl
um... the only thing is well i hate that i hurt her so much.. but now.. the girl i fell for... well lets just say i shoulda realized a few things earlier...
um... i made a new friend named Marlene shes awesome and everythin.. we talk quite a bit.. and i guess i could see stuff happening there... but i cant right now
im just sooo confused... i wish things would just work out and they were all happy!... i dont even care about me anymore
so chelsea said shed go w/ me to homecoming which totally made my... life .. lol :-D
and i didnt quit my job .. but i get to work EVERY NIGHT AFTER SOCCER TILL 9 YAAAAAAY! :(
hmm... so today totally rocked i hung out w/ a few of my favorite ppl to ever come into my life and saw some great bands.. (even tho i missed sugarcult *tear*)
With so little confidence he holds on
with so much to lose, he wont let go
he has his dreams, he wants them to be real
he has his life, THOUGH HE DOESNT WANT IT NOW
*i really dont know if she does and doesnt want to... or doesnt and just wont tell me* :( :(
~but does anyone notice
but does anyone care~
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well it has been a while.
i have the best sister.
i hate work.
i need a new icon.
and i'm too lazy to type out more.
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... im waiting for somebody...
okay so its been a while.... well
i went up north to my aunts house thing near higgins lake.. its was quite fun b/c we brought my dog... yay!!... um i mostly just relaxed we had fires at night and did stuff durin the day... me and my dad did the :Tour de Page: (lol) we circumnavigated the lake on our bikes TWICE.... over 26 miles w/ CRAZZZZY hills! it was a lota fun... i was proud haha..
um... that was pretty much all i met a couple ppl up there down by the lake one day we talked a lil and i got a couple sn's... yay friends! haha... um... yea then we came home lol... woot
Wednesday night
~ home from vaca and about 3 hours.. im bored lol so i call ppl... end up not doin anythin but thats okay cuz @ 10 i called chelsea... who happens to be my newest and bestest friends (bffe ilysm) she was having a jolly good time down @ cedar point w/ her friend molly.. and lets just say.. the guys were happy they were there ;) ... her phone kept dieing but we had some good talkin haha...woot
Thursday
~ didnt really do toooo much kinda sat around haha... talked to ppl and just blah... then chelsea got home from cedar point and guess wut.. she called me haha wut a concept! lol j/k... so we had a looooooooooong convo haha shes startin to get to know me a lot haha UH OH ... um yea basically thats all lol ... woot
Friday
~ uh oh friday... EXCITEMENT...right? lol... well during the day i REALLY can't remmeber wut i did... but in the evening i got to go to CHELSEA's HOUSE yaaaaaay!... lol we rented the butterfly effect ( whats this have to do w/ butterflys?... the chaos theory in sumthin about a butterfly and a tornado sumwhere or sumthin... lmaoooooooooo) it was a lota fun to watch b/c she kept asking questions and making comments lol so funny.... we also got curly fries from arby's yippy skippy... then i thought i lost my key.. but nawwww we're good haah... ooo yea and she make me a sweet bracelet yay!... but she tied it too loose hahah so it sometimes comes off.. lol (u gotta fix it chelsea)...um came home and came online talked to ppl... then i think me and chelsea talked on the phone again hahaa... she really must be gettin annoyed hearin me lol.... WOOT!
Saturday
~ again can't really remember wut i did... hmmm so basically nothin till work @ 5 then i worked till 9... yay b/c my mean bosses werent there.. (im quiting soon *tear* haha)... then came home and watched my sis and her friends play halo for a lil... then called chelsea back and talked to her till the weeeee hours of the night/morning.. haha... lots of fun! i guess thats alll.... woot
Sunday
~ so i woke up and.. um... thats all i remember.... JUST kiddin... i talked to ppl online and maybe on the phone.. idk haha.. then went to work @ 4 till 8 ... yay again no mean bosses... um.. came home and had a lil sumthin to eat :o.. i know crazy... then my "lil sis" alex! called yay!!! we talked for a but.. ilmls! go alex! haha... then chelsea called? no i called? no... i came online and talked then me and chelsea planned this whole way to get on the phone without having it ring hahahahahah.. we're so clever.. basically she called my cell from her house then i used my house phone to call her house phone and she just clicked over and boom! yay!! lol again.. we talked and ive realized shes knows me a lil to well.. i never talk about myself but i seem to w/ her ... it just happens lol... we took online quizes aand laughed and made fun of me lol... good times.... so then we both agreed that we need to sleep more so we hung up... then like 10 minutes later she called back.. to make fun of me a LITTLE bit more... haha then sleepyness took over.... maybe haha..... WOOT
Monday
~ so far ive played halo w/ my bro... talked to lots of ppl online... played more halo.. then i updated my journal haha!... i got soccer tonite yay... i get to run my worries outa me for a couple hours...
um... i guess thats all for now... WOOT
oh yea... guess wut my TV downstairs no longer works! so its sux! ive been spendin more time in my room haha! the comp now has taken control of my life lol! WOOT
**&^%honestly i cant get u off my mind.. i still believe that ur the reason fate exists.. i hope can see through my eyes for a moment and/or realize its true%^&**
Ill be your crying shoulder
Ill be loves suicide
Ill be better when im older
Ill be the greatest fan of your life!
...tell me that we belong together...
Everytime our eyes meet
this feelin inside me
is almost more than i can take
Baby when u touch me
i can feel how much u love me
and it just blows me away
Ive never been this close
to anyone or anything
i see hear ur thoughts
i can see ur dreams
I DONT KNOW HOW U DO WUT U DO
IM SO IN LOVE WITH U
IT JUST KEEPS GETTIN BETTER
I WANNA SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE
WITH U BY MY SIDE
FOREVER AND EVER
EVERY LITTLE THING THAT U DO
BABY IM AMAZED BY YOU!!
...i wanna spend the whole night in ur eyes...
Got a picture of you
i carry in my heart
i close my eyes and see you
when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you
i carry in my soul
i wrap it close around me
when the nights get cold
AND IF U ASKED ME HOW IM DOING
ID SAY JUST FINE
BUT THE TRUTH IS BABY
IF YOU COULD READ MY MIND
NOT A DAY GOES BY
THAT I DONT THINK OF YOU
AFTER ALL THIS TIME
YOURE STILL WITH ME ITS TRUE
SOME HOW YOU REMAIN
LOCKED SO DEEP INSIDE
BABY BABY OH BABY
NOT A DAY GOES BY
I STILL WAIT FOR THE PHONE
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT
THINKING YOU MIGHT CALL ME
IF YOUR DREAMS DONT TURN OUT RIGHT
and it still amazes me
that i lie here in the dark
wishing u were next to me
with ur head against my heart
AND IF U ASKED ME HOW IM DOING
ID SAY JUST FINE
BUT THE TRUTH IS BABY
IF YOU COULD READ MY MIND
NOT A DAY GOES BY
THAT I DONT THINK OF YOU
AFTER ALL THIS TIME
YOURE STILL WITH ME ITS TRUE
SOME HOW YOU REMAIN
LOCKED SO DEEP INSIDE
BABY BABY OH BABY
NOT A DAY GOES BY
...not a day goes by that i dont think of you...
**It's over... you say we're just friends... we're playing pretend... to keep me here... EVERY NIGHT I LAY IN BED... I THINK ABOUT TH THINGS YOU SAID... LOOK AROUND I'M THE ONE.. YOUR ONLY!!... LOOK AROUND IT STILL KILLS ME!!**
oh yea also im a lot more contemplative than usual so... dont think im screwy haha! lol woot
Sign Off ~ Sugarcult
wake up all alone
sending postcards back to home
from the road
if the medication works
could i be the way i was
in control
You painted a picture
im the worst kind of sinner you know
You painted a picture
happier than i can afford
Nobody can save me
Nobody can save me
Nobody can say wut ill do if im alone
SIGN OFF
SIGN OFF
SIGN OFF
SIGN OFF
SIGN OFF (NOBODY CAN SAVE ME)
SIGN OFF
SIGN OFF (NOBODY CAN SAVE ME)
SIGN OFF
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... all i wanna do is lie in bed with you...
... all i really ever need is you...
... all i gotta do is give up all i have to be with you...
thats all (for now)
*and so the third wheel turns*
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"Do You's"
1. Do you think I'm cute?
2. Do you want to kiss me?
3. Do you want to cuddle with me?
4. Do you want to hook up with me?
5. Do you think I'm smart?
"Are We's"
1. Are we aquintences?
2. Are we friends?
3. Are we hook ups?
4. Are we in a relationship?
5. Are we gonna have kids?
"Am I's"
1. Am I smart?
2. Am I cute?
3. Am I funny?
4. Am I cool?
5. Am I the most brilliant person ever?...hehe?
"Would You's"
1. Would you hang out with me?
2. Would you date me?
3. Would you be my hook up?
4. Would you be my girlfriend/boyfriend?
5. Would you make love with me?
"Have You Ever?"
1. Have you ever thought about me?
2. Have you ever thought there might be an "us"?
3. Have you ever thought about about hooking up with me?
4. Have you ever found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
5. Have you ever wished I were there?
"Are You's"
1. Are you done with this survey?
2. Are you happy you know me?
3. Are you mad at me?
4. Are you thinking about me?
5. Are you going to repost this so that I will return the favor?
TAKE THAT AND ANSWER TRUTHFULLY PLEEZ!!!!
thanx!! *shout out to BRIDGET who i got this from*
so my day was okay... i dont rmemeber.... uh
tonite was fun went to me friend Meg and Rachel's house watched movies got jumped on hahah
im not in the mood to type a lot sry
ttyl (??)
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| finally... a good day |
[21 Jul 2004|01:14am] |
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so i woke up... cut the grass... w/e
the i went to METRO BEACH and met kevo, eileen, cessily, kristina, jessie, rossi, aaaaaand Bridget there.... we played v-ball just messin around... then 3 random ppl came over and challenged us so me Bridget kevo and rossi beat them w/ eileen then me eileen kevo and rossi beat them w/ Bridget...
i had fun... but sadly then off to work
but right after work i call kevo and he says come over so.... i do and sit on his back deck w/ Bridget and jessie while they alllllllllllll swam.... then we all got kicked out by kevo's dad and me Bridget, eileen and kevo decide to go sumwhere....
so me and Bridget follow in my car kevo and eileen (newest couple) in his car to BIG BOY... where we pretty much just make a mess and laugh.... then off to eileen and Bridget's house where hung out in their garage (mind u im already late on my curfew)... then out by kevo's car and just kinda stood haha.... (later and later gettin home haha)
kevo then asked eileen out while me and Bridget watched then we all said g'bye and i came home....
all in all a good day!
yea... but now im not feelin well (not sick) but my feelins r very down!
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ttyl (??)
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| SUPER DUPER GANG... THAT IS NEATO :\ |
[15 Jul 2004|11:08pm] |
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wow its been a while...
i cant really think right now so i dont know wut ive been doin...
but it's porlby just somethin like this...
wake up, sit on comp, do chores, go to work, sit on comp, watch a movie, go to sleep...
yea thats about it...
ill give details into the little bit of fun i have had later...
and id just like to say that "I LOVE LAMP"
okay.... ttyl (??)
"With so little confidence, he holds on.
With so much to lose he wont let go.
He has his dreams, he wants them to be real.
He has his life, though he doesn't want it now.
(chorus)
He needs someone to tell him that he is needed.
He wants someone to say...
STAY
if only for a minute...
STAY
i want you here with me...
STAY
if only for a short time...
STAY
don't go away.
He blames himself, for others being hurt.
He hurts himself, though it's not his fault.
He stays up late, thinking 'bout his days.
He hides his feelings,but they won't go away.
(to chorus)
He sits alone, waiting for a call.
He waits all night, no one even says hello.
He had some hope, but that hope it seemed to fail.
He wants to give up, he feels his soul begin to fall.
(to chorus)
It's over now, he has no where to go.
It's over now, he has nothing left to hope.
Why doesn't anyone seem to care?
Why does he live on when no one is there?
He sits at home, waiting for a call.
The phone won't right.
No he'll never get a call.
(to chorus)
Don't go away
STAY
Here with me
STAY
Right here with me
STAY
I need you here
STAY
I LOVE you here.
STAY"
now as much as i hate to admit this... i love this song!
the verses.. to me.. r perfect to my life!..
the chorus can be iffy or maybe annoyin so many times in the song.. but i dont care...
also the chorus could be used in a love song.. but to me this is more important... ACCEPTANCE and FRIENDSHIP!
sooo... i love it!
yeah.... :\
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WOW... EVERYthing goes wrong!
i just typed this looooooooong entry that had everythin i wanted... them guess wut
the comp froze and it closed ... yay....
ill just to an overview this time.....
yesterday HORRIBLE... worst!
~started okay go to movie w/ julia and friends
~~on the way got a speedin ticket for doin like 5 over... :(..
~movie wow awesoem holdin julia!
~~say goodbye to julia till the 10th :(
~~late for work
~~boss sux more than anythin ever!
("i dont work fast enough"... i work fast... "i dont do a good job".... just naggin like a bitch! i dislike him alot)
~~ work late
~~ "talked to" by parent gettin home late
~~ tell about my ticket and get "talked to" again
(no driving for alex for a long time)
*the reel big fish concert was yesterday and i had a ticket but couldnt go b/c of work* ~~ so my friend calls me during my fav song... make me happy right? NO depress the hell out me!!
~ then finally somethin spectacular... i get online @ like 11.. and julias there... we talked till 7!!!! like a great convo!!! best convo ive had in yrs!!!
then she sleeps for two hours and we talk more! I <3 Julia sooo much! thanx sweetie!!
so we're to today...
starts off good
~talk to friends
~turn on tv and ANDY RODDICK IS GONNA BE PLAYING HIS MATCH!
yay!!!!!!!
~- cut the grass nothin to bad....
then work....
SUCKED... my boss talked to me about noy finishin sweepin and moppin yesterday...b/c we had this huge rush of customers.. but that doesnt matter.... w/e
i dislike him soooooo much... so im not gonna talk to him anymore... just do my work in silence and say im sry each time he mentions how much i suck @ everythin i do!!!!
and i come home and get to move 3 desks (1 downstairs) and a stove!!! yay!!!!
then finally just sit here and type...
I'M JUST TIRED!!!!
"...but if we are wise we'll know that there's always tomorrow"
ttyl (??)
lyl byez
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[28 Jun 2004|10:04pm] |
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i dunno...
wierd day...
ive been seeing signs that i should be depressed EVERYWHERE...
~the music i hear when i turn on the radio
~ my friends not being happy
~ stuff not workin out the way i hoped
AH life.....
well yeah worked sucked majorly.. it was goin good and fast till the last hour.. my boss became a dick and was all like work faster... but do a better job... i wanted to bitch him out :(
then i come home.. and i gotta go run an errand for my mom then take out the garbage... then i go downstairs to relax and call julia... but she doesnt answer so i layed on my bed for 1/2 hour thinkin... starin at my ceiling... wierd i know
so im a lil sadder.. but im still okay i guess.. w/e lol
yea i cant think of wut else to say...
ooo! tomorrow im goin to see The Notebook (chick flick) but im goin w/ JULIA!! yay and oddz and melster and pez (CUZ!)
so yay!
um... right-o
ttyl (??)
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| Work Work Work- killin of my social life |
[28 Jun 2004|02:42pm] |
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yea so i woke up at like 1:20 today and felt really bad... b/c im never supposed to sleep that much...
but i guess it was b/c i stayed up REALLY late.. like 5:30!
last night... hmm
@ like 2 sumthin i started watchin Bambi... cuz i honestly forgot that whole movie.. cept his mom dies..
but then i stopped and moved to my bed to think...
i thought about like EVERYTHING!!
it was an.... experience
idk how i feel really... Julia makes me sooo happy... but idk i still dont get to hang out w/ friends enough and also one of my bestest friends in the world isnt happy... so im a lil confused... i just wanna be able to make everyone happy :\
so i guess im pretty good... but work is killin all my chances to go out w/ my friends or julia
but hopefully tomorrow ill be able to go to the movies w/ her b/c shes leaving wednesday and i wont be able to contact her @ all till the 10th :(
so... so far today ive talked to my friends.. Melster, Oddz, Erin/Pez (mah fav cuz), JuJu (my baby) and of course K!
now Andy Roddick... my Tennis God / HERO.. is playin so of course im watchin!
but im just gonna relaz for two hours b4 work...
but i GOTTA start runnin... so i can attempt to make Varsity Soccer next season (doubtful.. i suck)
so i promise tomorrow ill start and never stop... maybe ill run to my friends house... haha! (only 3miles i think)
um thats all for now lol
im actually REALLY excited i have this now tho! yay! :D
PLUS IM LIKE REALLY TIRED FOR SOME REASON.. LIKE PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY... SOOOOO TIRED LOL
ok ttyl (??)
p.s. Love Actually is a WONDERFULLY AWESOME movie
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| 1st Entry... after G.P. fireworks |
[28 Jun 2004|01:11am] |
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Wow i had an incredible night!!
i went to the grosse point fireworks and met up w/ so many friends!
i was uber happy!!
i had fun hanging out with everyone till it got dark...
then i layed down and Julia layed on me!
it was the best feelin in the world!... i played with her hand and she played with my hair... heaven was on earth!
then after the finale... i had one of the greatest moments ever!
we kissed!!!!
WOW!
i was sooooo happy for ever lol
i said goodbye to everyone and gave amny hugs! (sadness)
then drove julia home (sadness)
then drove my friend steve home (lol sadness)
then i got home and talked to the same ppl online (happiness)
so yay! good night.... finally!!
p.s. this journal entry is dedicating to one of my bestest friends and favorite ppl on earth....K (katie)
yay! i made a journal for ya lol!
so... thats all! haha ttyl (??) BYEZ
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